22 April 2013

Life, Death, and Everthing After

One of the things that I ask myself when I sit down to write a sermon is, "Do I have something to say, or do I just have to say something?" This week it was both. The bombing of the marathon and its aftermath, the exposion in West, Tx, and a hundred other things made me think about perspective on Good Shepherd Sunday. This is what I said

Life, Death, and Everything After
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Saftey is in the forefront of many of our minds this week. Safety from people who want to do us harm, the availability of a safe place to work, The ability to safely walk out our door; on a local, national, and international level it seems lately as if we are less safe than ever. A friend of mine  sent out a tweet a few days ago that that said, “could everthing just stop being horrible for one day this week?” The crowds in todays gospel feel similarly. Under the heel of Roman Occupation, with resentment and revolution boiling up in every dark alley in Jerusalem, with bandits and robers on the highways and byways, the crowds turn to Jesus and say If you are the messiah tell us. Let us know that you are going to make us safe. Do you have guns, tanks, drones? Whats your battleplan for Peace? How are you going to replace the violence of Pax Romana? The crowds want Jesus, if he is the messiah, how he is going to make them safe.
            I was at the airport last week, and was reminded that if you have been to the airport any time in the last decade, everything that you have to go through is, "for your safety." You might say that Saftey is the watchword of airports. In fact, I think that it is one to the obsessions of our culture. from our the safety of our online documents to the safety of our children, it is the  goal of our culture to to avoid pain and struggle, and we define that as safe, and for the average American that saftey means peace. The absence of the threat of pain, real or imagined, seems to provide a peace that we crave. We dont know how to react when this bubble of pseudo-saftey is burst and pain and suffering as they are so want to do, intrude. That is impart what makes the events in Boston so difficult, because they are only on example, one that reminds us of all of the aninverseries of other painful things that happended this week —the shootings at Columbine, the Oklahoma City Bombings, the raid on the Branch Davidian compound, and on and on. Not only was the bombing and the bloo and the death painful in its own right but it shatters the false saftey that we have set up for ourselves.
            In response to the questions of the crowd, Jesus offers an answers the deper need, the crowds desire for true peace, but not the question that they have asked. Jesus does not promise new military spending, bringing the Romans to justice, not even new social programs. Jesus promises the peace of God. Jesus promises that suffering is not the end, that war and violence, sin and death do not have the last word. Jesus promises that once in the hands of the Good Shepherd, nothing can budge us from the loving care of God.
            Notice that Jesus does not say anything about pain. The effort to equate peace with safety, and therefore, a lack of pain is of our own definition and construction.The 23rd psalm does not promise that God will save us from anthing that is dangerous or painful, rather it garuntees that we will at some point have to walk through the valley of the shadow of death —but it also promises that we need not fear because our Good Shepherd stands along side us and that we will pass through to something else. God’s peace is not painless, or effortless, much less safe. It certainly wasn’t safe for Jesus. Four weeks ago, we walked again along the passion way. We repeated the story, walked along that pathway again this year to remember that pain and suffering, sin and death, are a part of our life —whether its the in-your-face pain of bombs at a Marathon, or the smaller grind it out every day sufferings, livinging with cancer, or watching a loved one fade away piece by piece as Alheimers takes hold. But more importantly we remember that God is also there, and when the pain and the suffering and death have done their worst God is still there, to wipe away our tears, to wash us clean and to bring us, at length into his kingdom.
            During the summer that I spent as a VA hospital chaplain, I had the opportunity to stand at many bedsides as people prepared to die. One of the first was a veteran of the the second world war. He had seen action in the pacific theater, including some of the most painful and bloody battles of the war. He had taken shrapnel in his leg that remained there until his death. “I beat cancer twice,” he would tell me, “but not the third time. Not a bad average I guess. Maybe the Dodgers will take me.” The day he died, I came it to sit with him. He hadnt been lucid for a few days, but he I sat down, he opened his eyes and smiled at me. You know what the great thing about dieing is, he asked, no I replied quietly I don’t,  after the pain ends,he said  all that Love is still there. And thats when you know it’s not going anywhere.”
            It is interesting that today’s Gospel is the first in this easter season that is taken from Jeusus Pre - ressurection ministry. Much like the disciples, we are harkening back to his teaching amidst the joy of the ressurection, marveling at what Jesus taught and the depth of meaning it has taken on. In the light of this candle, we are able to see that beyond the passion, beyond the crucifixion lies the ressurection, a promise that God will bring us into his Kingdom where sorrow and pain are no more, neither sighing but life everlasting. In the light of this candle maybe we chance a little walk into the valley to tell the others walking through the story of our Good Shepherd. It wont be safe, but we may find peace.

20 March 2013

Thats just not right: A Sermon Lent 5 C


          Eating a meal with my maternal grandmother was always an interesting affair. Grammy, as my brother and I called her, was the daughter of an Army General. She had been drilled through and through in what was right and proper. One morning, I came down to breakfast, grabbed the Los Angeles Yellow pages that doubled as a 6 inch booster seat, and propped my elbows on the table as I got seated. "Jed," came my Grammy's voice from behind the LA times, "would you have your elbows on the table if you were having breakfast with the Queen of England?" "If she was my Grammy, maybe," I replied. Grammy reached a long arm out from behind the paper and popped me on the back of the head. "No, you wouldn't," she continued, "because that is just not done in polite company."
            Polite company. That might be a good description of the dinner that Jesus is attending in today's gospel. Mary and Martha have pulled out all the stops for this dinner. They are celebrating Jesus and his resurrection of Lazarus. The sisters, but mostly Martha have dusted off the good china, picked up the Straubs best beef cut, ironed the linen, and now the guest of honor is here, sitting with his disciples and the very–recently–mostly–dead Lazarus. Its all turning out so well, right and proper.
            Mary’s actions, in context, seem strange, outlandish and a little awkward. Mary’s anointing of Jesus feet, on it's own, would have been a highly personal thing to do. But when Mary unbinds her hair and uses it to wipe away the super abundance of ointment that she has lavished on Jesus feet, she is doing something of such intimacy - especially with someone who is not her husband, that she brings the whole dinner to a screeching halt. As my grandmother would say, that is just not done. Interestingly it is Judas who probably breaks the awkward silence, chiding Mary, not for her intimacy with the teacher, not for this lavish intimate worship she displays, but for her financial extravagance.
            Judas, what ever his other motives is trying to save the situation. Judas chides Mary for not thinking of the poor. It’s not particularly surprising that one of Jesus followers, even this one, might be focused on the plight of the poor. Jesus does say a great deal about the poor and the identification of God with the poor. Judas is trying to help out this silly, benighted woman whom he thinks has missed the point of Jesus teaching. It’s about making the world a nicer kinder place to live and redistributing the wealth. After all, Mary should know better - she lives in Bethany, which literally means poor town. She is surrounded by people who are poor because of the brokenness of creation. Rather than saving up for this little bottle of odoriferous ointment, shouldn’t she have found something better to do with the funds - a tax deductible donation to the local food bank, or to Jesus own 501c3 for the poor? Judas is trying to turn this from an awkward moment into a teachable one.
            Jesus makes use of this moment. He uses it to teach Judas and the disciples and anyone else who will listen not about what is right, and proper but about what is meet and right. He did not come to make things a little bit nicer, a bit more bearable. Jesus has come to do, as Isaiah says, a new thing. Jesus has come grab hold of sin and death by the scruff of the neck and throw them out on their ear. He, the Word of God has come so that all people, rich, poor, and middle income might have what it is that they are all lacking – an imperishable inheritance of eternal life, their adoption by God as sons and daughters. Mary is the one who gets it. Mary understands what’s going on, what being a part of this kingdom is in a way that none of the other disciples seem to. And so she worships Jesus as Lord and God. She makes herself totally reliant, totally devoted to Jesus. She pours all of her self into her worship of her Lord, holding nothing in reserve, relying totally on Jesus grace and mercy, mercy meant not to make the world more bearable, kinder and gentler but to make it new.
Jesus praises Mary’s intimate vulnerable act of anointing. At some level, she understands that in order for Jesus to do bring this new thing, God’s kingdom to fulfillment, he has to die. Her outlandish, unrestrained, super abundant devotion to her Good Shepherd has become a prophetic act, acknowledging what Jesus is about to dive into in the upcoming week, the Upper room, the passion the cross.  She displays prophetic gratitude for what her Lord is willing to do for her, for all of them, for us. 
            For a long time after my parents got divorced, I tried to get my fathers attentions by showing him how together I had it. Of course to my father, I probably just seemed cocky and far too sure of myself. the spring of 5th grade, my cub scout troop was doing a pine would derby. I spent four days and used six kits trying to make, not the fastest car, but just a car that could make it all the way down the track without the wheels quite literally coming off. So, after I had gotten my seventh kit from the store, I walked down to my father’s house. I found my dad in the garage, putting away the lawn mower. “Dad, I need your help.” “ Of course,” my father said. “I don’t know how to do this,” I admitted holding up the little wooden car. “It’s OK,” my father said, “I do. ”
            Mary took a pound of costly perfume and anointed Jesus’ feet, and the house was filled with the fragrance. Mary’s reckless, vulnerable, intimate worship of Jesus certainly isn’t right and proper, but it is meet and right.  When we kneel before the altar and hold out our hands begging for Jesus to be with us, to fed on his body and his blood, to know him that intimately, it isn’t particularly proper either. It’s not dignified to kneel down, to take the place of servitude of vulnerability. It’s not right and proper, but it is meet and right.